Rough monodrama based on sense-memories

This monodrama was based on what I felt/remembered when I felt the envelope & (presumed) letter inside. I wrote it just as I remembered it, with reflections that I thought of only in hindsight. I can't see doing it as a scene "in the moment" because it would just be a girl, sitting next to her classmates, opening (what would seem like tothe audience) a normal letter. Another option, while still kind of beign in the momennt, would be to vocalize thoughts, as if speaking to God/the audience. Or I could do it looking back on that moment, as I do now, maybe holding the letter that prompted these memories, telling the audience about that moment, like a first person story.

It was on a Gold Rush field trip in fourth grade. I had spent most of the time feeling left out and excluded-not during the day, but at night when I could hear the other girls staying up late and giggling. I couldn't join in because I didn't know what they did or cared about what they cared about. The last day on the class trip, I got this letter from my parents just like everyone else. Only mine was in a different envelope and "artistic" stationary that had a different cent that was not my mother's perfume nor the small of a stationary store. I open this letter and I wanted to cry- not because it was touching nor even mean but because I was so sure that she had not written what she was supposed to write. She had written something unique and different from what all the other parents wrote their children. That embarrassment of differentness, though no one else could see, made me quickly fold the letter and shove it back into its envelope. I couldn't look at anyone because I knew what she had written and it was awful!

Thoughts on which way it should be performed?
Also, I'm going to expand it more, so expect updates over this week!